I bought red lipstick. Going from nothing more than lip balm or gloss, just to keep my lips nice and soft, this was a bright shock when I first smoothed it on. I've gotta say, red lipstick is tricky to put on, it's very noticeable when it goes beyond the lip line and ends up looking rather clown like. When I tried to get the clownish spillover off a slight ghost remained in a faint pinky stain. I worked away at it, managed to get rid of the haunting and ended up with a more romantic, and much less foolish look. A type of whimsical heart shape appeared.
The other day the idea popped into my head that I wanted to buy a bright res lipstick. I'm not sure where it came from, i never wear lipstick. I'm thinking it's all a part of my subconscious's plan to be more bold, to be willing to stand out a bit more instead of hiding in the background. Essentially be more "me", be more of the person I feel is floating around inside myself bumping into walls and getting tangled in the brambles I've put up for some reason.
In another move to clear cut the inner tangles and get used to seeing my "self" I'm going to play with self-portraiture more. I always hate pictures of myself, I'd rather be behind the camera. Another way of being in the background you see.
Should be fun. Experimental. Opening.